It was like she was standing right behind me in the mirror.
I drove to the school on prom night in Gwen's blue dress with my gray hair pinned up and my good pearl earrings.
And if you're waiting for me to say I felt foolish, I did feel foolish. But I felt something stronger, too.
I felt like I owed her something I couldn't name.
The gymnasium was decorated with string lights and silver streamers. There were teenagers everywhere in their glittering dresses and crisp tuxedos. Parents lined the walls, taking pictures on their phones.
When I walked in, things got quiet in a spreading circle around me.
I felt like I owed her something I couldn't name.
A group of girls stared openly.
A boy leaned toward his friend and whispered, loud enough that I heard him even over the music: "Is that someone's grandma?"
I kept walking.
I held my head up.
"She deserves to be here," I whispered to myself. "This is for Gwen."
I was standing near the far wall, just watching the room fill up, when I first felt a prick against my left side.
I held my head up.
I shifted my weight. Still there.
I shifted again. Another prick, sharper this time.
"What on earth," I muttered.
I slipped out into the hallway and pressed my hand against the fabric near my ribs. There was something stiff underneath the lining. I could feel it through the material, a small, flat shape that shouldn't have been there.
I worked my fingers along the seam until I found a small opening and reached inside.
